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WLS was supposed to fix me

Weight loss surgery was supposed to fix me.

I was supposed to be thin for the rest of my life. It was going to stop me from ever thinking about food ever again.

I was so wrong.

I remember with the lap band, I was so hungry for dinner. I took my first bite. It got stuck. And then I literally could not eat a second bite for like 2 more hours. I was just starving, sitting there at the table while everyone else was eating. I couldn’t take a single bite more. It was miserable.

That was one of the things that pushed me over the edge. I knew something had to give. That there had to be one more thing I could try to lose my weight.

Slowly, I started to like myself too much to have this be my life anymore. And that was what led me to having it finally removed.

And that’s what has brought me here. Right now. To your front door.

You can demand more from yourself just because you want to. Change your relationship with food — and your surgery — and your weight regain. Forgive yourself for making decisions you did. Make peace with the way life has gone. Gaining the weight in the first place. And even passively thinking that “maybe you were just not cut out to be skinny.” Like one of my doctors once told me.

The truth is we can all be at our natural weights. With awareness, attention, and practice — and a whole lot of self love.

Because why do this if not because you want to learn how to radically love yourself and to ultimately heal from all of this emotional garbage.

I’ve been there, done that. Join me. It’s time to stand back up, dust yourself off, and decide if you’re coming with me.

Let’s go.

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Bariatric Surgery Regain

I know the gut wrenching shame when you gain back the weight (and then some) after having bariatric surgery.

I know it all too well.

I am here for you. Because I know now the way to permanent weight loss.

I’m on my way to my natural weight. Oh and did I mention I had my lap band removed 2 years ago.

I’m not a unicorn. I’m an example of what is possible.

This is totally possible for you, too. I’m here believing in you, and this possibility for your life. Let’s chat so you can feel the excitement and anticipation too.

That’s how we change your life together.

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Introducing: My Flagship Coaching Program to work along side Weight Loss Surgery

I have 2 tremendous coaching programs.

My flagship is specialized to work in tandem, and cohesively with weight loss surgery.

Living a life post-op, your brain needs to catch up with your stomach.

Feel the peace. 
Trust yourself. 
Lose your weight. 
Utilize the tool of surgery you already have without resentment.

Work together with your body to change your life.

No more weight struggle.

No more feelings of inadequacy, 
or not being enough, 
or not being worthy of success.

I’m absolutely thrilled to share this work with the world.

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I’m at My Best when I’m Singing

I used to commute to work.

I’d have plenty of time to listen to music and sing.

Those days are long gone — and I couldn’t be happier.

The other day it occurred to me that I had not been singing.

I LOVE to sing. I LOVE listening to my music. So, how could this be?

So, I started singing again.

And I am learning lessons that I am ready to hear and learn and take with me for the long haul.

The universe is speaking to me and I am all ears.

What do you think the universe is trying to communicate to you?

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Am I wrong? Quite possibly.

I don’t know if I was actually wrong about every single thing I have ever done, but I am willing to be.

The reason why this came up for me is because basically every altercation or problem that had previously arisen in my life was solved on my part without intention, without conscientiousness, in “asleep” mode.

I had found a solution for myself and/or others without really considering the thoughts and beliefs behind it. Whatever it was, it did not come from a clean and deliberate space. I did not consider what kind of sisterhood, friendship, marriage, relationship was being created by the reaction, action or lack-thereof that took place.

The reason behind why I choose to be wrong now is because I quite possibly was and am. It’s ok. It’s all ok. I am glad to be wrong.

I want a stronger marriage, better friendships, and deeper relationships with everyone in my life and I am willing to take responsibility for all of it.

Here’s the key: whether I am wrong, or even if I was not — it does not even matter.

I want everyone around me to be able to be themselves fully. The same way I want to be that way too. I am letting go of all of it.

I welcome the feelings — being wrong, embarrassed, hurt, sad, like a failure, egotistical, boring, unimportant. Whatever you got.

I feel proud of myself because I have given myself the space and freedom to have been and to still be wrong. I did not know better and now I do. I accept all of it.

I want to invite you to experience the power of coaching and how it can serve you in your life. Contact me here and let’s get to know each other better. I’d love the opportunity to help you unleash your potential.

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Weight Loss ain’t Linear

Disclaimer: This post was written for me as much as it (might) have been for you.

Fact: The scale does not continue to go down. Fact: The scale is not something that is even and sensible.

Making any emotional investment into the scale is a sheer waste of time and energy.

Louder, for the back?

F*@$ the scale!

Do the habits. Do the habits. Do. The. Habits.

The habits will not let you down.

The trajectory which gets created as each habit gets practices means more in a few weeks, months, years than any other thing that you may do.

Do. The. Habits.

That is all.

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The Ugly Truth

I am a Life Coach. I am a Weight Loss Coach. One rolls off the tongue a bit more easily… Can you guess which?

My weight as of this morning is 245.8 lbs and I am a Weight Loss Coach. It takes practice and deliberate intention to believe this about myself. It takes questioning very specific belief systems I have about myself and the world to say this out loud and to share this here, with you, right now.

So, here is the thing. The secret. The way for me to be able to abandon antiquated belief systems no longer serving me — when the thoughts appear, I dismiss them and counter with the new belief I am practicing.

It really is that simple… and complicated.

And besides, here are the facts: I had Lap Band Weight Loss Surgery and immediately KNEW that it was my BRAIN that was the reason for me being overweight, for me enjoying to overeat, for me to crave the types of foods that I have in the past. There is absolutely no denying that. Surgery is a tool. The brain determines whether or not you experience success — of any kind.

Since having my weight loss surgery undone, and even in making the decision for myself — at the same weight I was when it was previously done — there is no denying that I’ve put myself into the hot seat. The public eye. With something that is typically thought of as a private and personal thing.

How could that be if I had not already changed the way I thought about all of that?

Exactly. Because I did.

And there is no hot seat. That is a thought! I do not believe there is a hot seat.

Here is what I know: I know exactly how to lose this weight. I am not restricting or depriving myself. I am living life the way I will for the rest of my life — without the extra food. I am feeling my feelings instead of eating in response to them. I’ve lost 75 lbs. I’m basically half way to my goal. And I have absolutely no doubt that I will get there.

But if I did not question, evaluate and change the way I thought, NONE of this would be possible.

So, what do you believe about you that is holding you back from achieving your wildest dreams?

Let’s get to work.

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McDonald’s & Weight Loss

I have recently found myself in a pattern with my weight loss. I drop 5 lbs and then spin in those 5 lbs for 2-3 weeks before being able to drop down another 5 lbs and so on and so forth.

I know weight loss is not linear. But it is interesting to find myself in this very specific pattern.

I also know that it is because I sometimes find myself not fully believing or being able to visualize my body as a size 8. [This speaks to my coaching style and if you’re intrigued, message me.]

It would be easy for me to find fault with myself and see the negativity, see that this will “never happen” for myself. And if that was my point of view, I would be right!

Here’s the thing — the last 2 days this week (and on plan for day 3, too) is McDonald’s. Yes, it is not healthy. No, it is not my favorite thing to eat. It is just where I am at right now. Some of you may not even be able to admit that aloud. [I feel you. Message me.]

But! I let go of the judgement, the self-imposed pressure of what I “should” be eating in order to lose weight. No judgement. I just listened to my body according to hunger and satiety, and I lost weight. I lost weight eating McDonald’s two days in a row. I did not eat too much. I ate just enough.

So, I met myself where I am. Somedays it is eating a salad. Somedays it is McDonald’s. Being in tune with myself is enough for me to trust that I can ask of myself something reasonable. No pressure. No questioning. No resentment.

If this approach sounds like something you’re missing in your own life, send me a message and we’ll set up a free mini session.

I teach women how to trust themselves and their bodies and I am looking forward to hearing all about your own success and how you’ve met yourself where you are — and still gotten the overall desired results.

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When the Doctor is wrong…

I remember once when I went to the hospital to get my lap band checked, the DOCTOR said to me, “maybe some people are not meant to be skinny.”

I was utterly devastated.

I believed him.

I had such a low opinion of myself, it only made perfect sense that the doctor who was supposed to help me simply saw no reason to try. I was not worthy of figuring it out.

Truthfully, the lap band did exactly what it was meant to do. It forced me to eat less. But it also ruined every single meal I had for 7 years. Not just because I was forced to eat less, but because I had to excuse myself from the table every single meal (albeit a handful). I could NOT eat food that was fibrous, or too “thick,” or really anything solid at all. It sucks having to admit this out loud but if you know what it’s like, then you KNOW exactly what I am talking about. And this went on for S-E-V-E-N years.

Until I could not ignore it anymore.

I started trying to figure out how to love myself. And that meant that I could no longer ignore this thing that was inhibiting my quality of life.

I had to have it removed.

It was scary to say that out loud. I knew it for years, never willing to admit it to anyone else.

Could it be that I had to have it out WITHOUT considering a revision surgery?

Blasphemy.

But I embraced the scary. I wanted my life back. I wanted to see if I could figure out this whole weight struggle.

I KNEW another surgery was not going to be the fix. 

I have now lost more weight than I did with the surgery and I am about to be the lowest I have in over 15 years.

If you or someone you know had the lap band, please share this with them. I want to help you see your worth. I want to show you how to beat this, take back your life and learn to love yourself and this whole round about process.

It was not an easy road this surgery, the promise of what it offered and the miserable fail that was reality… 

You are worth so much more. Trust me.