I started coach certification in October of 2018. This last year has been a tremendous season of growth in some ways — and with that, the patterns of more-of-the-same have become glaringly obvious; no longer able to be ignored.
In my life, this is neither the first nor third attempt to lose my weight publicly. The growth I’m faced with right now is to set a boundary. I’ve always been an “open book”, and for the first time in my life I’m not only recognizing this about me — but I’m implementing. I am setting the boundary. To honor myself. To take back some privacy. And to do the real work of active healing. It’s been a lot of passive healing as an attempt to “do the impossible” — publicly.
It needed to play out this way so that I could see the pattern and recognize that this way does not work for me. As it has never been the way that works for me. And for me to find the way that will work, must be a totally new-to-me way of doing.
Truthfully, I’m no longer consumed with doubt or fear. Because for the first time in my life I know exactly how to lose weight, and how I will hit my goal of wearing a size 6. The journey is to figure out what I need from myself that has been missing all along. This is part of the “how”. I’m sure there will be more “how’s” that will come to light but being in the vision of this how right now is profound.
With this shift, I am making another change. Weight coaching will still be near and dear to my heart. It may even be something I come back to in the future. I am making a transition.
I am the shame coach. I know shame all too well. I have felt it in many avenues in my life. Weight just being one. I am lit up to create this offer to the coaching world.
Shame is something we are taught. I am setting out to teach the undoing of shame. Because shame is optional. And because life without shame is filled with possibility…