Having my lap band removed was the scariest thing I have ever done. I did not fully believe in my ability to live without it and not gain weight. But I also started to love myself enough to want to have it out all together.
The quality of life with it was awful. I don’t think there were a dozen meals throughout the entire 7 years when I had it that I did not have to get up from the table. You know what I’m talking about.
I tried so hard to ignore this thing that really made life miserable.
I could not eat food that was healthy.
I had to only eat the crap.
It was just a really messed up situation.
I had lost 60 lbs that first year with it in 2010. I got pregnant with and had my son in 2015. My new highest weight was 320. By July 2017 I found myself at the same weight I was when I first had it placed all those years ago — 292.
Facing the doctors and having it removed was the most courageous day in memory.
I could tell they really had no idea why I was doing this. That I must have been crazy. Maybe I was.
At the time I did not know exactly how I was going to lose my weight (which was the scariest piece of all of this!) but I was determined to figure it out.
I knew within those first 3 months that the lap band was not going to be the thing for me to figure this out. I knew that eating was in my brain. It was deep down but I knew it was there. I was desperately trying to ignore it but finally I could not any longer.
I am now down 71 lbs which is more weight than I have ever lost in my life. And I have figured out why overeating was something I struggled with for the majority of my life.
You are not alone. You deserve to have your band removed too if you are even mildly considering what the process would be.
I have absolutely no doubt that I will lose my remaining 90 lbs. I have goals to finish 2019 at my goal weight. I am all in on feeling all of the feelings. I will teach you how.
Do you want to live intentionally or in default mode?