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Am I wrong? Quite possibly.

I don’t know if I was actually wrong about every single thing I have ever done, but I am willing to be.

The reason why this came up for me is because basically every altercation or problem that had previously arisen in my life was solved on my part without intention, without conscientiousness, in “asleep” mode.

I had found a solution for myself and/or others without really considering the thoughts and beliefs behind it. Whatever it was, it did not come from a clean and deliberate space. I did not consider what kind of sisterhood, friendship, marriage, relationship was being created by the reaction, action or lack-thereof that took place.

The reason behind why I choose to be wrong now is because I quite possibly was and am. It’s ok. It’s all ok. I am glad to be wrong.

I want a stronger marriage, better friendships, and deeper relationships with everyone in my life and I am willing to take responsibility for all of it.

Here’s the key: whether I am wrong, or even if I was not — it does not even matter.

I want everyone around me to be able to be themselves fully. The same way I want to be that way too. I am letting go of all of it.

I welcome the feelings — being wrong, embarrassed, hurt, sad, like a failure, egotistical, boring, unimportant. Whatever you got.

I feel proud of myself because I have given myself the space and freedom to have been and to still be wrong. I did not know better and now I do. I accept all of it.

I want to invite you to experience the power of coaching and how it can serve you in your life. Contact me here and let’s get to know each other better. I’d love the opportunity to help you unleash your potential.

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McDonald’s & Weight Loss

I have recently found myself in a pattern with my weight loss. I drop 5 lbs and then spin in those 5 lbs for 2-3 weeks before being able to drop down another 5 lbs and so on and so forth.

I know weight loss is not linear. But it is interesting to find myself in this very specific pattern.

I also know that it is because I sometimes find myself not fully believing or being able to visualize my body as a size 8. [This speaks to my coaching style and if you’re intrigued, message me.]

It would be easy for me to find fault with myself and see the negativity, see that this will “never happen” for myself. And if that was my point of view, I would be right!

Here’s the thing — the last 2 days this week (and on plan for day 3, too) is McDonald’s. Yes, it is not healthy. No, it is not my favorite thing to eat. It is just where I am at right now. Some of you may not even be able to admit that aloud. [I feel you. Message me.]

But! I let go of the judgement, the self-imposed pressure of what I “should” be eating in order to lose weight. No judgement. I just listened to my body according to hunger and satiety, and I lost weight. I lost weight eating McDonald’s two days in a row. I did not eat too much. I ate just enough.

So, I met myself where I am. Somedays it is eating a salad. Somedays it is McDonald’s. Being in tune with myself is enough for me to trust that I can ask of myself something reasonable. No pressure. No questioning. No resentment.

If this approach sounds like something you’re missing in your own life, send me a message and we’ll set up a free mini session.

I teach women how to trust themselves and their bodies and I am looking forward to hearing all about your own success and how you’ve met yourself where you are — and still gotten the overall desired results.

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Lap Band Removed

Having my lap band removed was the scariest thing I have ever done. I did not fully believe in my ability to live without it and not gain weight. But I also started to love myself enough to want to have it out all together.

The quality of life with it was awful. I don’t think there were a dozen meals throughout the entire 7 years when I had it that I did not have to get up from the table. You know what I’m talking about.

I tried so hard to ignore this thing that really made life miserable.

I could not eat food that was healthy.

I had to only eat the crap.

It was just a really messed up situation.

I had lost 60 lbs that first year with it in 2010. I got pregnant with and had my son in 2015. My new highest weight was 320. By July 2017 I found myself at the same weight I was when I first had it placed all those years ago — 292.

Facing the doctors and having it removed was the most courageous day in memory.

I could tell they really had no idea why I was doing this. That I must have been crazy. Maybe I was.

At the time I did not know exactly how I was going to lose my weight (which was the scariest piece of all of this!) but I was determined to figure it out.

I knew within those first 3 months that the lap band was not going to be the thing for me to figure this out. I knew that eating was in my brain. It was deep down but I knew it was there. I was desperately trying to ignore it but finally I could not any longer.

I am now down 71 lbs which is more weight than I have ever lost in my life. And I have figured out why overeating was something I struggled with for the majority of my life.

You are not alone. You deserve to have your band removed too if you are even mildly considering what the process would be.

I have absolutely no doubt that I will lose my remaining 90 lbs. I have goals to finish 2019 at my goal weight. I am all in on feeling all of the feelings. I will teach you how.

Do you want to live intentionally or in default mode?